New Year...New Beginnings

There's always something exciting about a new year.  You feel as if you get a fresh start on life.  I've been thinking about my new year's resolution and what needs to change in my life...
I haven't seen other people's resolutions but I assume this is a pretty unoriginal one... but oh well.

• I will no longer be staying up to all hours of the night, I will go to bed between 10 and 12. 
• I will faithfully get up every morning to workout with  my workout partners. And on days, we don't workout, I will go to the Y by myself. 
• I will eat healthier. Small portions, less sweets.
• I will not procrastinate on my homework, putting myself through serious emotional stress and my mom as well. (If you know you me, you will laugh at this one because I've procrastinated my way through this entire semester. I didn't procrastinate as much in my other two years of high school, so that makes me think that things in my personal life have contributed to my lack of motivation and laziness... Anyways, it's going to change.)
• I will take the time, daily, to read and study God's Word, journal, and pray. (The goal is the read the Bible in One Year thing. I've started it like every year for the past 3 years and have yet to finish. I will finish the Bible before I go to college.)
• I will also take time, daily, to work on my music.  (Songs I have yet to finish writing, will be completed and recorded this year. Perhaps, I'll become a "youtube artist" and become famous ;)  
• This isn't really a resolution, but I want to travel this year. I want to go somewhere I've never been. Perhaps during the summer or sometime in the fall.  I just want to go.

Well, this is all I can think of for now.  Basically, I want to live out a GOOD routine.  I know some days aren't going to be perfect...life gets crazy and you can't live out this robotic routine, but I want to get to the point where I want to go to bed early, I want to get up early, I feel weird if don't workout...etc. That way, on a day where I do get to sleep in a little bit, or I do get to relax a little more I feel rewarded instead of lazy. If that makes any sense...

This is it. Time for a new beginning. There is so much hope in those two words.

"Another fresh new year is here... another year to live! To banish worry, doubt, and fear, to love and laugh and give! This bright new year is given me to live each day with zest... To daily grow and try to be my highest and my best! I have the opportunity once more to right some wrongs, to pray for peace, to plant a tree, and sing more joyful songs!"

I have the opportunity and I'm taking it. I hope you do too. Happy New Year :)

Let the Rant Begin

Although, I slept fairly well last night (compared to the night before), I would still like to vent about my sleeping issues. 

#1: It takes absolutely FOREVER to fall asleep! Sleeping is something that just happens, right? Normally, we don’t think through the process of falling asleep.  I do.  Every time I start to enter into a sleep, my mind jerks me back, so then I try and focus on how to get to that state of sleepiness again. It just doesn’t work out.

#2: After the struggle with myself to fall asleep, I am then faced with constant dreaming.  CONSTANT.  I’ve heard something like dreams really only last 2 seconds… well, I don’t think I believe that.   I wake up several times throughout the night from these “dreams” and in the morning, I’m exhausted (no matter how many hours of sleep I get).

#3: These “dreams” could hardly be called such, but they’re not really nightmares.  Most of the time, I am just really tense during them.  I had like a Transformer’s dream where big robots kept chasing me. Being chased is my biggest fear… but I was able to beat them, so that is why it doesn’t qualify as a nightmare.  Anyways, you get the point.  Being tense in my dreams probably means that I’m tense in real life, which is why I wake up so tired.

Well, that is all.  The saddest part of this all is that I used to LOVE sleep. I would get all happy and warm inside when I thought about it..and now I dread it. It is very sad. :( Well.. if anyone has any remedies, please share :)