Senior Year

It's hard to believe that I only have one more year of high school.  It's even harder to believe that I almost graduated early and threw away this precious year.  A year seems like such a long time, but I know it's going to fly by. So it's time for me to start asking myself seriously, "What do you want to be when you grow up?". The easy answer is a wife and mother. But what about college? What should I do while I'm waiting on a husband?

Asbury University has been my dream school every since I can remember. My parents went there and so did three of my siblings. It was kind of like a second home. I know the campus, I know some people up there, and they have an excellent music program. It was a life changing place for each of my family members and I was eager to experience it. It wasn't till a few months ago that I started having doubts about it. I went to visit last September and it didn't feel like I thought it would.  Granted, I was having a terrible week, but still.  The apathetic and almost resenting attitudes that filled Chapel was discouraging. I've held Asbury in such high regards all my life and I looked forward to being in a place where everyone shared the same passion for Christ as I do. I'm just really scared of getting there and having all my expectations crash around me.

On the other hand, where else would I go? I've been looking at other colleges and possibly studying abroad, but I don't know those places. I know Asbury. Plus, I'm really interested in their Worship Arts major. It's just frustrating how sure you can be about something and then all of a sudden you're full of doubts and concerns. Decisions are just never easy.

Be still, my soul: the Lord is on thy side.

Bear patiently the cross of grief or pain.

Leave to thy God to order and provide;

In every change, He faithful will remain.

Be still, my soul: thy best, thy heavenly Friend

Through thorny ways leads to a joyful end.

Be still, my soul: thy God doth undertake

To guide the future, as He has the past.

Thy hope, thy confidence let nothing shake;

All now mysterious shall be bright at last.

Be still, my soul: the waves and winds still know

His voice Who ruled them while He dwelt below.

What amazing lyrics....

All I know is that I serve an Almighty God who cares about my decisions and will guide me if I just trust Him !
Blogging is so constructive.  I start out in a tizzy and by the end of it, I realize how ridiculous my worrying is and I'm reminded to just put my trust in God. It's good to be back in the blogging world :)

Math is Beautiful

Yes, you read that correctly. Math is beautiful. Consider the beauty of math acknowledged. ;)

Boom.

New Year...New Beginnings

There's always something exciting about a new year.  You feel as if you get a fresh start on life.  I've been thinking about my new year's resolution and what needs to change in my life...
I haven't seen other people's resolutions but I assume this is a pretty unoriginal one... but oh well.

• I will no longer be staying up to all hours of the night, I will go to bed between 10 and 12. 
• I will faithfully get up every morning to workout with  my workout partners. And on days, we don't workout, I will go to the Y by myself. 
• I will eat healthier. Small portions, less sweets.
• I will not procrastinate on my homework, putting myself through serious emotional stress and my mom as well. (If you know you me, you will laugh at this one because I've procrastinated my way through this entire semester. I didn't procrastinate as much in my other two years of high school, so that makes me think that things in my personal life have contributed to my lack of motivation and laziness... Anyways, it's going to change.)
• I will take the time, daily, to read and study God's Word, journal, and pray. (The goal is the read the Bible in One Year thing. I've started it like every year for the past 3 years and have yet to finish. I will finish the Bible before I go to college.)
• I will also take time, daily, to work on my music.  (Songs I have yet to finish writing, will be completed and recorded this year. Perhaps, I'll become a "youtube artist" and become famous ;)  
• This isn't really a resolution, but I want to travel this year. I want to go somewhere I've never been. Perhaps during the summer or sometime in the fall.  I just want to go.

Well, this is all I can think of for now.  Basically, I want to live out a GOOD routine.  I know some days aren't going to be perfect...life gets crazy and you can't live out this robotic routine, but I want to get to the point where I want to go to bed early, I want to get up early, I feel weird if don't workout...etc. That way, on a day where I do get to sleep in a little bit, or I do get to relax a little more I feel rewarded instead of lazy. If that makes any sense...

This is it. Time for a new beginning. There is so much hope in those two words.

"Another fresh new year is here... another year to live! To banish worry, doubt, and fear, to love and laugh and give! This bright new year is given me to live each day with zest... To daily grow and try to be my highest and my best! I have the opportunity once more to right some wrongs, to pray for peace, to plant a tree, and sing more joyful songs!"

I have the opportunity and I'm taking it. I hope you do too. Happy New Year :)

Goodbye, Summer...

Summer is over. School has begun.  

I have mixed feelings about this.  It makes me really really sad that summer is over and that I have to get back into a routine again, but at the same time maybe it will be good for me to have routine again and it will keep me distracted from other things. Overall though, I am not ready for the daily, long, grueling hours of homework. 

Fact about me: I am a homeschooler and I attend a program called Classical Conversations.  (Want a balance between homeschooling and private/public school?  One that will give you structure, community and a great education? Look it up!)

I am certain I will learn many things that I will want to share with you in the future, so to save time, I'm going to tell you about my classes now rather than later.

1. Shakespeare/Poetry (I’m really excited about this class! Our first play that we are reading is, Much Ado About Nothing along with Brightest Heaven of Invention by Peter Leithart as a study guide.  And in Poetry, we are reading The Roar on the Other Side by Suzanne Rhodes)

2. Advanced Philosophy (I look forward to this class as well.  We’re using The Consequence of Ideas by R.C. Sproul as our text)

3. Chemistry (Hm. Math and Science combined. Not much more to say other than I am not a Math or Science person.)

4. Latin 3 (I thoroughly enjoy learning languages.  One problem: I have only taken Latin 1.  So, I have a good bit of catching up to do…)

5. Advanced Math (People always get confused when I call it this, so let me explain.  Saxon is the curriculum we use and that is what they named the book; it’s basically a combination of geometry and pre-calculus)

6. American History (In other words, a big fat, 932 page book, with small print, filled with our Country’s history.  Definitely not looking forward to this class.)

Well, I need to go finish up today's homework before Church.  I hope everyone is having a great week! And to those of you who are starting school, good luck and work hard!

Tuesdays

Tuesdays tend to be my "get things done" day.  Probably because I'm forced to have an early start due to piano lessons, haha. Sometimes I like Tuesdays, sometimes they are just a pain.  I liked today.  I went to piano lessons and made some final improvements on a song with the help of my teacher.  Then, Mom and I went school supply shopping! I'm definitely not ready for school to start back, but I do looove me some school supplies! The beginning of the school year is like a fresh start on organization.  So, I spent the rest of the day cleaning and organizing my room! It looks great :)

I'm somewhat obsessive when it comes to starting a school year.  If the organization isn't perfect in the beginning, you're just doomed for the rest of the year.  So, I take a lot of time figuring out how to make things as perfect as possible!  I'm also a teeny-bit obsessed with sticky notes.  They are just so wonderful!  I don't like marking in books... when I do, it just seems... wrong.  I guess that's just how I was raised!  So, instead of writing in the book, I use sticky notes!  They have even invented see-through highlighter sticky notes that I am proud new owner of :)  The only downfall to getting all my supplies is that I now have no excuse not to do my summer homework...  I suppose I will start that tomorrow.

Well, I just had the urge to blog about my day.  Here's a picture of my pretty notebooks!

One for each class!

My favorite :)

Every time I have a good, productive Tuesday, I am reminded of Kari Jobe.  For some odd reason, she LOVES Tuesdays (And she quite frequently posts about it on Facebook).  For those of you who don't know, Kari Jobe is a phenomenal, Christian singer.  She's probably best known for singing, Revelation Song, but some of my other favorites are, Be Still, and Sweep Me Away.  She is so talented.

Hope you all had as good a Tuesday as I did and I hope tomorrow is even better :)